I am lucky enough to be a stay at home mom and I don't ever want to take that for granted.
The past year (2013) I focused a lot on my blog, it grew and I loved it.
I loved creating what it has become.
It took a lot of my time and a lot of hard work and it will always be a passion of mine.
This past December I started feeling overwhelmed. It became beyond apparent that I was always trying to keep up. Keeping up with being a mom and wife, keeping up with an unclean house, keeping up with posting & emails, keeping up with creating fresh content for the blog,
keeping up with other bloggers.. and it all just kinda became exhausting.
I want to be me, I want to be good enough just the way I am. I want to run the way I want to.
I wanted to be content and not feel like I had to keep pumping out fresh content to keep readership or grow new readership (like so many articles I read said you need to do).
So many things I read says be consistent, your readers need to know what to expect from you..
As I look back I see down falls. I saw my patience run thinner with Lexi through times I was working on projects and I see times I missed out on simply hanging out with my family when I was busy working on some post.
My goals of posting 4-5x a week was a lot of work. Was it always worth the time? I'd like to say it was but I'm sure a portion of my time spent could have been used in better ways. I could have been the one entertaining my little girl instead of letting the t.v. do it and I often found myself wondering how on earth all of these other bloggers survive life and a full time dedication to this "job"/social pleasure.
Don't get me wrong. My blog has been life changing for me, its been my creative outlet and I LOVE doing it! But, I think it's been time for good balance. Each one of us bloggers have a specific purpose on "why we really blog" but I think so many times bloggers (me included) are getting caught up in this "social pleasure".
There has to be a fine line and it's something I have thought long and hard about over the past couple of months and I'm trying to achieve it. I have had this public blog for almost 4 years now. I have definitely had my fair share of times when I thought why in the heck am I putting so much time into this thing. I'm always routed back to because it makes me happy, if I had to pick a job in life... this would be it, there is no other place I could release this type of creative outlet that my brain needs to release. But does it steadily bring in the income of a real full time job.. no. So I need to stop treating it like it's a full time job. I am trying to find a good balance for me and for my family which is why you don't see me pumping out 4-5 post a week anymore.
At the end of the day, I have decided to pick what is really important.
I still love sharing our life, our projects, and other fun stuff..
But, I guess what I am trying to say is..
I hope you will still follow along.. even at our new blog pace.
because the support of my readers means the world to me!
thanks again for hanging out with me in this space for as long as you have!!
dress: marshalls | sandals: gap (now at outlet)